I am a vivid dreamer...is that what you call it? if you can control every single movement in the dream because you KNOW youre dreaming?

i could jump off cliffs, mow people down with FN-90 fully automated machinegun, hack and crack peoples bones esp my high school teachers, create money out of soil and said...you name it, i did it.

a gift? i would say yes, but recently (last night actually) i have lost this rare ability that i have.

for i have dreamt of a person i do not wish to dream of. thus i tried to kill her from my sight, banish her from MY realm of dominion. but i couldnt... the force is strong in this one.

the content of the dream wasnt bad, i mean...we did get along and everything, but that is actually the worst part, because when i woke up this morning, i felt like a millionaire turned beggar overhalf a night. boy did that sucked...

i may have sovreignity over the conscious world where i can block out unwanted fathoms, and i do not fear life itself. but when the world goes to sleep, the creatures of my past creep in on me, and stabs a steel-like claw into my kidney.