A Disturbance In The Force
Okay, im weirding myself out...
recently i had these really weird dreams..by weird, i mean reALLLY weird...
im a lucid dreamer and i usually direct my dreams, but since my seperation with Jadyn, i have been losing them..
a few nights i go, i dreamt i was a "mid-wife"... or "mid-husband" if theres such a thing as that..i helped deliver a baby into the world...the mother wasnt caucasian, or oriental...she looked like a latino..
so that completely weirded me out ayE?
wait till you hear this..
last night i dreamt i was in a maternity ward and it was full of babies. every baby had a guardian, except for one. she had dark skin and curly hair..about the age of 2 id say.. one of the "guardians" leaned too back and nearly tripped on this baby girl, her ..ummn..cradle nearly fell off its feet.
so i walked over to readjust the cradle, and there she was. smiling at me. i stooped down and put one hand in to "distract" her..wriggled my fingers in her face a little but i didn touch her. (im afraid of the fragility of babies..like priceless antiques, what if i break them?! i cant live with that)
i then said something to a "guardian" who was behind me, and she said something back..i cant remember what.. but the baby girl mimicked what ever i say. very intelligent girl.
that was the sweet portion of my dream, what followed next were nightmares...
[okay, viewer discretion... offensive material ahead..]
in that same maternity ward, i saw two MALE African Americans. lying on the same bed.. one of them lets call him "A" said to "B"
A-"hows the baby?" and lifted B's SKIRT. yes he was wearing a skirt. As if to check if theres a bulge in his stomach..
B- (very surprised to see that there isnt a bulge = no baby, he proceeded to cry, like hes just suffered a "miscarriage".
A- "what no baby?" he then dropped his trousers... and.... (no easy way of saying this, but this is what happened in my dream) made manly love to the other man.
B was crying in pain, but it was like the pain he had to endure to get his "baby". he did not resist A. obviously he didnt like it...but it looked as if he was going thru it because he really wanted a child..
how can a man give birth to a child?!
that was seriously disturbing... all these dreams, i was almost there as a compeltely independant 3rd party..just an observer and have no part in the events going on at all.. which is highly unusual because usually im the Jean Claude VannDam in a really crappy C Grade movie beating the living shit outta bad guys..and never lose? thus Lucid Dreaming..
there are even more mentally disturbing, (not like the sexual ones mentioned above) dreams...but id rather not say it here...abit sensitive.
other dreams included, watching worldcup live, by the bench. Malaysia V Johor Bharu? wtf? isnt Johor Bharu a State?! the score was 6 - 8 btw...
what really baffled me is the appearance of "black" and "brown" people and babies again and again in my dreams....
Roy needs a dream interpretor..i think im going nuts.
recently i had these really weird dreams..by weird, i mean reALLLY weird...
im a lucid dreamer and i usually direct my dreams, but since my seperation with Jadyn, i have been losing them..
a few nights i go, i dreamt i was a "mid-wife"... or "mid-husband" if theres such a thing as that..i helped deliver a baby into the world...the mother wasnt caucasian, or oriental...she looked like a latino..
so that completely weirded me out ayE?
wait till you hear this..
last night i dreamt i was in a maternity ward and it was full of babies. every baby had a guardian, except for one. she had dark skin and curly hair..about the age of 2 id say.. one of the "guardians" leaned too back and nearly tripped on this baby girl, her ..ummn..cradle nearly fell off its feet.
so i walked over to readjust the cradle, and there she was. smiling at me. i stooped down and put one hand in to "distract" her..wriggled my fingers in her face a little but i didn touch her. (im afraid of the fragility of babies..like priceless antiques, what if i break them?! i cant live with that)
i then said something to a "guardian" who was behind me, and she said something back..i cant remember what.. but the baby girl mimicked what ever i say. very intelligent girl.
that was the sweet portion of my dream, what followed next were nightmares...
[okay, viewer discretion... offensive material ahead..]
in that same maternity ward, i saw two MALE African Americans. lying on the same bed.. one of them lets call him "A" said to "B"
A-"hows the baby?" and lifted B's SKIRT. yes he was wearing a skirt. As if to check if theres a bulge in his stomach..
B- (very surprised to see that there isnt a bulge = no baby, he proceeded to cry, like hes just suffered a "miscarriage".
A- "what no baby?" he then dropped his trousers... and.... (no easy way of saying this, but this is what happened in my dream) made manly love to the other man.
B was crying in pain, but it was like the pain he had to endure to get his "baby". he did not resist A. obviously he didnt like it...but it looked as if he was going thru it because he really wanted a child..
how can a man give birth to a child?!
that was seriously disturbing... all these dreams, i was almost there as a compeltely independant 3rd party..just an observer and have no part in the events going on at all.. which is highly unusual because usually im the Jean Claude VannDam in a really crappy C Grade movie beating the living shit outta bad guys..and never lose? thus Lucid Dreaming..
there are even more mentally disturbing, (not like the sexual ones mentioned above) dreams...but id rather not say it here...abit sensitive.
other dreams included, watching worldcup live, by the bench. Malaysia V Johor Bharu? wtf? isnt Johor Bharu a State?! the score was 6 - 8 btw...
what really baffled me is the appearance of "black" and "brown" people and babies again and again in my dreams....
Roy needs a dream interpretor..i think im going nuts.
posted by Killl_Roy at 9:20 AM
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