Alot of...

...Hate, in this blog, i feel.

ever since i was a kid i marvelled at the wonders of Star Wars. How the constant struggle between light and darkness echo even in galaxies far, far away from ours... there are many characters in the movies- one, perhaps the most famous (and notorious) of all is the little wisse gremlin they call Yoda.

Yoda has preached against fear and hate and anger as they lead to the "DarkSide", meaning all that is bad and non-cuddly. so , i have been "exposed" to these "teachings" since time could remember, but why is my blog so full of hate?

Am I... Really Sith?

but playing Star Wars RPGs like... Knights of the Old Republic, or any other game that has an alignment feature say, Fable, Vampire the Masquerade and such, ive always been on the "good" side (doing charity, saving the dying person, choosing to spare my enemies rather than burn their head off with a light sabre etc, you get the drift) but reading back to my posts, it felt like i've always wrote with the intention of murder, or.. Slaughter..

so, the fundamental question is, what am i?

Am i really the harbringer of hate? or the epitome of kindness?

i guess my mind is chaotic and evil in nature, even in my private speech (here, blogging) i let the beast take the wheel. as you can imagine having claws and nails they make terrible drivers. but in my conscious mind, i believe, i want to believe that i posses a kind soul.

i think somewhere in my earliest posts that i've said i wanted to make my blog a venting space where i scream my bitterest heart out and hope they do not seek out to destroy people's minds... or their bodies. just wanted to make sure...

so i hope, to any readers that are still reading this blog, do not be affected by my relentless rants. and on my side of the "bargain" i'll try to minimize emo posts and senseless barrages of foul and rude words...