Man

How can Man wage War?
with Hearts so Pure?
Ignorant to it's purpose,
Like Dumb fish to a Lure.

How can Man make Peace?
with an Iron Fist?
Wouldnt it be grand,
If The Letter was Kissed?

How can Mankind Kill?
Is His Will, Truely Ill?
like Devils in their Roost,
Or is it merely for the Thrill?

Why do Man do Hurt?
For Reasons so Absurd
For Logic so Untold
For Truths Unassured

The Ambiguity will not End;
So long there lives in this world- the Race of Man.

The Women...

...in my life... All of which have impacted me in their own distinctive, respected and respective ways.
After reaching Choke’s blog, I felt obliged to say something to him. Since his message was conveyed in a blog-form, i’ll say it with and in my own blog. This is a bit More of a Mano to mano way.

Before i begin – Choke, This is not meant to agitate you, or to patronize in any way or form. Like i said,i feel obliged because youre going through a phase which i think i have endured and survived, feeling 10x better than i had been before.
*takes a deep breath* so here goes.

Human beings, men to be exact- which is what im focusing on primarily in this post- always posses a need, a need to belong with someone, usually a woman, unless youre gay.

This sense of longing is inherent and instinctive in every human being, unless youre an anti-social, or gay.

Now, choosing (or so we have the illusion of choice) a partner for every person is different, so far as the criteria goes. Some choose based on feelings, some choose based on looks, some choose for the similarities, some choose out of spite, some choose because of the differences the other significant person possess. Either way, there is a criteria that has to be met either way.

However, with that being said, “love” is a very abstract thing, and the word “criteria” is definitely not synonymous with the word “love”.
So the question now, is then – how do we choose who to love?

Rhetorical question

The answer is you don’t. You just fall in love with someone. So you can throw everything ive said before this out the window.

Now, in my personal life, i have “loved” a few people. Ask me why now and i definitely cant give you a definite answer. The only thing i could say about that “love” is, its definite.

Out of all my “lovers”, most of which ive had the pleasure and blessing of them “loving me back”, a.k.a we have been in a relationship together. However, there is one, this one exceptional case/person, whom i truly loved but had not received the same “returns” if we we’re to address all the effort and emotions put into her as an “investment”.

This girl, is called Jeretine.

To be honest, i wouldn’t say “i have never loved someone as much as her” cliché-ly and bluntly, but i can definitely say, “i have never loved anyone in the way i have loved her”.

(gosh this is getting extremely difficult to write because “love” is such an undefined word)

The thing is, i put myself out there, to be the best i can be, to be the better than most (almost all) men could ever be, but yet she did not feel the same way i felt for her. I spent money, emotion, energy and valuable time, all in a bid to “win” her heart.

Failed miserably.

I know we shouldn’t use the word “never, but i have never felt so miserable before in my life. God it sucked soooo much.

Then one night, it hit me. Why is love so painful? Why is loved so coveted when all it brings is pain and suffering?

I thought and pondered for a long time, and at the end of the night, i finally realized.

Love, is not an investment. You don’t throw things at it and expect it to be tossed right back. In a sadistic manner, love is a black hole, a special anomaly that exists just to drain your life away. But in an optimistic and religiously devoted way, Love is a boon, a buff that fortifies your very soul. It empowers you to do things you normally wouldn’t have done (ill explain this bit in a bit), now from here it can go two ways – bad and good.

The bad- you end up looking for another source of pain to cover over the pain you felt whilst loving someone. Cutting yourself, punching the wall, destroying your soul etc etc

The good- you end up having thoughts and deliberations like the ones ive had, and it makes you a stronger, better person.

Like Buddha said, all desires lead to suffering. The more you desire something, the more suffering you will get at the end.

Since my form of “love” when i was “with” Jeretine led me down this painful path, i looked at the other side of Love.

I asked myself, “why do i love her?”

The answer for me was “because it felt good loving her.” -note the full-stop.
Because nothing comes after a full-stop, its a “Full – Stop” get it?

Love is like the epitome of a rhetorical question- it doesnt need to be answered,

but like all human beings long to belong; like all rhetorical questions, people still ask them even though no answer is in order.

So from that morning on, i focused on just one thing. Loving her. And that was the end of it.

And boy did it feel good.

Multitasking

You know the popular saying, well its not really a saying, But- its a general belief that women can multi-task better than men, or rather, some men cant multitask at all..

Multi-tasking can be applied to almost anything, anything that can be described as a "verb" can be multitasked... okay i just repeated myself.

what i really mean is, say, talking on the phone. when i talk on the phone, i cant use MSN or convey messages other than in the form of speech to anyone else. Nor can i read and talk at the same time.

When im going to class, things like this offen happen to me - i need to get my wallet from my room, but decided to brush my teeth 1st, so i brush my teeth, and after that when i walk into my room, i cant remember why i entered my room for, so i look around, found my pair of socks, and walk out... then thought "eh? my wallet", id then have to walk back in to get it.

after asking around for awhile, i also realized im not the only guy who have problems like these- alot of the guys ive "intervieweD" have to same woes as me.

Women on the otherhand, theyre like, multi-barreled tanks who can shoot at alot of targets at one time, a tank being a tank, it has threads as well, hence it can move AND shoot at multiple targets at the same instance.

Women can walk down a shopping isle, decide which tampons are the best value for money vs comfort, think about what to get in the next isle, paint their fingernails, talk on the phone and to their girlfriend next to them ALL AT THE SAME TIME.

is it just me? or is that a mighty powerful thing for someone to be able to accomplish?

Some women, can do their research essays, err researching i mean + write down notes + talk to me on msn + eating chips + again, on the phone with a friend + texting their moms and play Facebook games.

Of course, in their defence some men would say, the quality of the work done is mediocre, or downright bad. But in some instances my female peers have better results that i do, shops in a more effecient manner than me, can hold a more coherent conversation on the phone, write more complete text messages and have better painted fingernails than i do.

kudos id say.

However, there are somethings that annoy people, when they multitask when doing the task at hand..

Say, sex forexample.

again, through my very informal interviews, and even if i hadnt interviewed these people, its pretty much safe to say more men can achieve orgasm faster and easier than women. Some women, dont or never at all..

now i know what you girls are thinking...

"hes bad in bed!"
"small penis *makes a small gap between the indexfigner and the thumb*"
"bad breath"
"no momentum"
the list of excuses goes on.

but have they really thought about why? they cant get an orgasm?

if i could give my 2cents, id say women are multitasking.
Activities like sex, cant be multitasked.

Men, well, the typical male concentrates hard on what they do. they FOCUS at the matter at hand, or in this case, the girl under/above them. No wonder some men P-ME (its up to you to think what that abbv means), because they are so happy, or so aroused by the girl they are sleeping with, which is something the girl should be proud of, instead of giving him the cringing face or the *im going to bed* look.

Women on the other hand, when they DO it, they DO, other stuff as well..

well, not literrally speaking, they DO it in their mind.

"have i paid the bills yet?"
"do i look fat when im on top?"
"maybe ill suggest going under"
"oh shit i havent paid the bills"
"what if i get fine for late payment? that will mean i cant that pink purse i wanted! oh no! "
"hmm but the blue one looks better with my favourite top, and its cheapter too!"
"i think ill get the blue purse then, oh wait! my boyfriend DID pay the bills for me, so now what? should i get the pink? or the blue?"

*guy orgasms*

"what!? already?!"

/facepalm.

i wouldnt have made this up of course, some comedian actually did a sketch quite similiar to the example i just gave. i think i just plagiarised. but since i did mention, maybe its not plagiarism!

ANYWAYS

i wouldnt have said this without substantial proof. id say, its tested, and prooven that if you keep your mind OFF the matter at hand, ie. the partner your having an intimate moment with, you can REALLY delay the climax.

So, thats some multitasking skills a GUY needs and the same skill GIRLS should forget about.