Reflection

If only people could reflect on their own behaviour and person without looking in a mirror..

which is pratically impossible because the mirror only shows attributes which are skin-deep. To look into one's personality, thoughts and memories would require a mirror with supernatural powers, or of a supernatural origin.. i dare claim in a reflective learner, hence the blog... i feel that most people learn from reading what they once "said". i've learnt alot from listening to myself.. but not enough apparently.

I still fall into traps i've foreseen before walking into them; i still make the same mistakes i made a long time ago... Mistakes like placing my trust on people that i cannot trust... mistakes ;ole believing in gods that dont believe me, mistakes like placing my love on people that i cannot love, and with that said- devoting my spirit onto people that wont devote the same to me...

Its a cruel world. A huge hole that wont regurgitate whatever you throw in, a huge well that wont return whatever coin you toss in... some take your money, and dont even make a splash.. not even a ripple...

So, i know we all live in that point in time -the point of no return, yet, why do i make mistakes which i wished i could travel back in time and ammend everything...

but i think ive described enough...

/emo

You are a cancer,
You are part of a great disease...
You are a piece of infected meat,
Which i cant help but feast.

You are sweet serenity;
You are bitter turmoil.
Both wraths i've felt,
like the "inbetween my toes" soil.

You are a puff of smoke
You are a block of Ice
You are the heroin in coke
All Those things an addict would entice

I am the lamb,
here i come to the slaughter.
Not that I am damned,
But in the open fields i hear your laughter.

I am the slave,
Left dead in an open grave.

I am the victim,
of your merciless dictum.

...Continued

Back to my previous post, I feel like deleting this blog.. and starting a new.. theres too much prejudice and racist comments here, logged and stuck in time forever... unless i do something...

Now that i am a fulltime Law student, im really into this subject and becoming a lawyer or judge even has been more than appetizing to me, in fact i want be them :) for awhile at least and i was afraid what i have expressed here is bigatory...

yeah i think ill wipe this blog...

some lessons are learnt by myself while authoring this blog... and i have no regrets. but i think the ultimate lesson still eludes me at the time being - forgiveness and equality to all. i have been biased (overly), racist and a bigot for most parts. that is something i will to change.

and i will.